feeling better, atho

I had to cheat yesterday on the cleanse/detox. Maybe this was all in my head; but i was starting to feel ill from the lack of what i perceived was protein. There's only 1 scoop of protein powder in each smoothie (3x's a day), and it just didn't seem like enough to balance out the meds i take. All i'm getting is fruit/sugars all day long...so i had 5 crackers and 2 slices of cheese. I didn't feel so great after that; bloated, over-full, but by the evening...i felt more stable.

This morning, i was very "productive" in the restroom...perhaps this cleanse is finally working. I'm looking forward to, and dreading, the next phase; the actual Food Lovers Fast Lost System DIET (or WOE; Way Of Eating) itself...only because i wonder if it'll be any different for me than what i was supposed to be doing all along...

I'm sure that if i were to follow my NDFH Diet --i'd be WAY ahead of where i am now. I'm too busy wanting other things; craving and allowing other things...which is why i was HOPING this cleanse/ detox would break me of any sugar-cravings...something it SAYS its supposed to do.

Haven't exercised much this week. Didn't do ANY at all last week...i could give lots of excuses, but the truth is; i haven't felt like it. The house has been full of fumes from the staining process on the cabinets, and that doesn't lend itself to indoor bike-riding. I'm trying not to walk too much, because my Orthoped. advised i NOT use walking for my 'exercise'...but i WANT to. Jeez; i'm not a power-walker...i just walk the dog!

So, i've decided that if my knee continues to improve over time, which it has been -- SLOWLY, but there IS less swelling--then i'm going to walk my 30 mins with Addison every other day or so. I'd like to do it more; or at least, i SAY i'd like to -- but i never really get my 5 days a week in.
Hmmmm....I dunno why i don't. I clearly have the time; most days, anyway. It's almost as if i get the idea that 3-4 days is "enough" in my head, and if i've reached that, i let myself off the hook if i'm tired, or just don't feel like it. Dumb. That could be keeping me where i am weight-wise.

Anyway -- we have Dexter with us again for a couple of weeks. He's easy to care for and not a bother, but i do have to watch the door more, coz he's small. I'm gonna TRY to walk Addison and Dex at the same time this AM. Maybe it'll be easier than walking just Addison, who -- until he tires a little--keeps wanting to be out in front. I'm constantly reeling him in via "Cesar's Method" -- but it tires me and on some level; frustrates me. I just want him to WALK without me having to constantly correct him. Perhaps it's my frustration that keeps him pulling on that leash. Hmmm....food for thought.

Oh well... in time, with due-diligence and perseverance, i'm sure he'll improve.
K, gonna get suited up for it.

More later...
OH; haven't weighed today, because yesterday, on day 3 of our Detox/Cleanse -- i was UP 1 lb from last week! WTF?? I feel lighter today, but that could just be my imagination. I'm gonna wait and weigh on Sat -- on day 6. And on Sun; we can have solid food again! Yea!

later...