Another bad week -- and it's making me positively EDGY!

I saw the orthopedist this Mon and he wanted me to lay off any exercise for at least 1 week...possibly two. I'm on anti-inflammatories for my knee. The swelling just won't go away. We're seeing if this'll do the trick...

So, what i've noticed is that even with a pretty darn good diet (albeit i skipped a few snacks, and i'll get into that in a few) -- without the exercise, my weight hasn't budged. Still sitting firmly at 176. Ugh!

How is it that eating less often (ie; less caloric intake) doesn't equal weight LOSS? I wake up feeling thinner every morning, only to weigh myself and see no change. But the weeks when i'm biking and using the sauna...it's a steady decline.

So, needless to say; i'm looking forward to getting back on the bike. I suppose i still could be using the sauna, but it seems to go with exercise for me these days. Maybe i'll try it tonight and see if it garners any difference.

This has been the week from hell, other than that. We're in the middle of the kitchen remodel and i'm having a disastrous time with our contract help. The whole situation has not only tried my patience to the nth degree; it's made my stomach squirrely in a way i'm just not used to. I don't cringe from conflict...never have. i don't mind at ALL telling somebody to get their shit in gear...but i can't exactly say what i want to here, because a cash-payment (already made!) is involved, and we need this guy to friggin' finish! I'm beyond frustrated and constantly worried we're being scammed or taken advantage of -- and what makes it even worse is that it was I who found this guy and wanted to hire him.

Shit.

I've also realized that i hate that feeling of distrusting somebody's intentions. This reminds me too much of being married to Rob. Maybe that's why it's messing with my stomach. That constant edge of anxiety; wondering if i'm being lied to or manipulated...it's too familiar. And i resent being put in this situation...altho it is I (!) who put myself here.

Double Shit.

I think i need to let it go. Yeah...that's what i need to do. The world won't come to an end if our sheet-rock isn't installed today and even if he blows us off and takes off with our money without finishing his job; losing $600, while being a real drag, won't kill us. I may be tempted to print all over Craigslist and anywhere else i can think of "Don't Hire (insert name here) coz he's a lying, crooked shyster that does shitty work!!!" -- but THAT will be the hardest part of all; NOT doing exactly that. ;o)

Other than that; i'm feeling okay, i guess. I have tendinitis in my right arm and it's re-inflamed and painful. I'm making good money lately, but feel overwhelmed with all the money i'm trying to save for summer travel and other things i'd planned on for the house. I think i over-extended myself a bit. Just trying to get it all in order.

Hmmmm...maybe that's at the center of all of this. I feel like things have spiraled out of control -- with our contract help (i have no control there, that's for sure!), with my concern over making enough $$ for the next few months, with the fact that i can't exercise and get better results with my weight-loss efforts. It seems every which way i turn to gain ground, my efforts are foiled.

Triple Shit.

k, i'm tired of thinking of this.
I have clients coming soon. Maybe that'll take my mind off things for a while...