scared to weigh in, but more bad news...

Our Sheet-rock-installer that has been causing such grief in our lives is finally MIA, and with our $$!! What gets me and has really twisted my stomach is that i wanted to trust him, because he was presenting compelling stories that just COULDN'T be un-true..or so i thought. Truth be told, tho; i really don't know what happened...



He stayed in contact with me throughout the last few weeks, even AFTER we paid him $700 in cash, with no prospect of more $$ til after the job was done -- and took the time to explain his absence or whatever else was the issue at hand...all of this when he could've easily just written us off EARLY...right after receiving our cash. It's the weirdest thing. But as of yesterday; his phone no longer works.

In any case; i'm way ready to get off the roller-coast that is his life. We've hired a new crew to start tomorrow AM and get our walls finished. Just knowing we're moving in a positive direction eases me -- even tho we're out $700.

Shit.

Anyway -- I actually DID weight in (this is a continuation...i stopped writing and came back to this just now...) and am at 175. I thought i'd be higher, coz i was a few days ago. I'm happy with that. I still haven't been eating as often as i should be. BUT i HAVE been exercising! I plan to get a walk and bike ride in tonight, still...need to! Perhaps i'll take my walk now...while Tom's putting up insulation. Hmmmm...may have to do that.

I'm still now below 175 and am pissed at myself for that. How do i expect to be thinner and trimmer by vacation time if i don't buckle-down and get my shit together? I find my mind keeps going back to "start again next week..." like a twisted mantra of pseudo promises. I guess that's how i've gotten by all these years...inching my way into my 40's and not a lb lighter.

Double shit.

k, i'm tired of typing and thinking about this. I've been debating a friend on Facebook about Obama and his policies and America's "racism"...it's exhausting when people ignore facts so that they can continue to live in the dark...

til later...